I’ve been feeling VERY tired lately. A little beat down, worn out, exhausted. I have a major case of the third trimester blues.
My patience is short.
My energy is non-existent.
I get texts/tweets/emails asking how I’m feeling and how I’m holding up. I’m always torn between being brutally honest and putting on a smile and saying “I’m GREAT!”. I usually bite my tongue and say I’m great. Because honestly, I am. I’m carrying a healthy baby and I’m healthy. Well, as “healthy” as you can be when you live on graham crackers and dark chocolate hersey’s kisses.
But oh-so incredibly uncomfortable. I spend my day either peeing, or feeling the need to pee because this baby is laying on my bladder in the most unpleasant way possible. I’m hormonal times a million, and want to cry over anything and everything. It’s not fun I tell ya.
Even sitting to write lately has exhausted me and made me cry. I have trouble putting words on the screen that even make sense. I want to be an encouragement, but find myself whining and beating myself up. Why can’t I find the joy in this season? Why am I so anxious for it to end? I should be soaking up these last 6 weeks and enjoying them, instead I’m frustrated and tired. I want to be open and honest, but at the same time don’t want to be “that mom” that complains about her blessings.
Because I’m am oh-so-blessed.
Instead?
I find myself yelling at my kids and being short with my husband.
I’m too tired to clean that nasty bathroom that’s been yelling at me for weeks. Nasty.
It’s just all overwhelming.
I want to find rest.
“Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly.” Matthew 11:28-30
That. I want that.
To live freely and lightly.
In the unforced rhythms of His grace.
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You have nothing but sympathy and empathy from me. I just crossed over into the third trimester at 28 weeks. I feel so tired, HUGE, hormonal and burnt out a lot of the time. I “only” have a three year old and this pregnancy was very much wanted but still… I think all pregnant ladies should be able to be honest. I doubt anyone loves pregnancy 100% of the time and that’s coming from someone who really does enjoy most parts of it. Hang in there and know that you are most welcome to vent away!
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Thank you for your encouragement and honesty!! It’s so tough and I always worry with posts like this that I will get a lot of negative feedback, so I’m thankful for people who “get it”! Hope you are getting some rest and feeling good (as good as you can in the 3rd trimester!)!!
I honestly have no.idea how you do it! I know how utterly exhausting pregnancy and the first couple of years are with just one child… You amaze me every day with your strength and I wish I had half of that strength Imyself. You would have to be more than human to grow and raise 3 baby girls and we all know God loves us as we are, doing the best we can, faults and all. You are blessed, but that doesn’t mean life is easy and all sweet and beautiful… The greatest blessings come with challenges and you are dealing with those challenges with so much grace, whether you feel like it or not. Be as honest as you like, we all love you for being you, even during those hard days xx
Thank you as always for your amazing encouragement! I appreciate you and how you always encourage and lift me up! Love you sister!
I remember how hard it was to be pregnant with a toddler. Can’t imagine adding one more to that mix. Give yourself grace. It’s a hard season of life to be in. But you’re not there alone.
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Thanks for that reminder!!!!!
Hang in there, sister. I wish I could give you a hug. You’re not alone at all and you’re in the most uncomfortable stage. Pregnancy is good, but it’s not easy! Well, not for everyone and certainly not all the time. I love it when you’re honest, because it’s YOU. I want to hear your voice, whether in encouragement or exhaustion, because it shares your heart. I’m having a day similar in the fact that I KNOW God’s wonderful and good truth but I’m so weary in the midst of it. It feels like I can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel even though I know He’s leading me down the right path. You’re an amazing mama and your family knows that. I’m praying for extra energy for you — to feel rejuvenated and to have grace in the moments where you need. You’ve got this.
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Thank you, thank you, thank you!!! I appreciate your encouragement. I so know how you feel. I’m in such an exciting and wonderful place in my life, yet so weary in the midst of it all. Saying a praying for you and hoping you are feeling well!!!
The fact that you’re not crying in your chocolate cheerios every morning amazes me. You have TWO toddlers to take care of every day and you’re growing another human. You’re a superhero! I know that doesn’t really make you feel better though. Just remember this is a short phase even if it seems loooooong, and God’s grace is new every day. You’ll get through and you will THRIVE! You’re a pro already! Big hugs to you mama!
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HAHA I just cry in my chocolate cheerios MOST mornings
Thank you for your encouragement and reminding me that i will thrive in this season!!! I adore you!
I agree with everyone! You are totally allowed to be tired and feeling yucky… being pregnant is HARD at the end… and I say this just from my first! You are doing great… and before you know it… it will be over
Woo! It will be over soon!!
i like how Meagan put it: you’re growing another human! there is a whole other person in your belly right now and your body is working furiously to knit that sweet girl together. this season is one filled with exhaustion, and i think that’s fully okay to recognize. He will be faithful to give you rest in this season!
i think you are definitely an encouragement, in this post especially. it’s encouraging to me to see other women opening up and being real about how the seasons they’re in aren’t their favorite, or are difficult, or are challenging. it’s okay to say that, to know that. but even though you know this season is exhausting, you’re still seeking His face and His glory in it, and that to me is incredibly encouraging. you may not feel like the light of His grace right now, KK, but you definitely are!
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Thank you SO much sweet girl. I so appreciate you!!!! It’s for sure a tough season, but it’s a really rewarding and wonderful one as well. I just have to remind myself of that a lot
I remember feeling this way towards the end of my second pregnancy–and honestly, I don’t know how you do it with TWO kids. I only had one at the time, and it was brutal. BUT– you are SO blessed, and soon, you will (hopefully) forget this part!
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Yup, I know I will forget this!!! I don’t remember this part with my first two pregnancies, it’s all a blur! Can’t wait for this to be a blur too when I have a precious baby in my arms!