Archive - March, 2011
the unused pregnancy test
Every time I open my top drawer in our bathroom I see a single, lonely, unused pregnancy test. It almost hurts my heart a little bit.
Because there’s a good chance it will never serve it’s purpose.
We are done.
Well, maybe. Most likely. I thought my first pregnancy was tough with everything I faced, and so far only 16 weeks in, this is way worse. I know how incredibly blessed I am to even be able to carry a child. I am reminded of that fact daily when I look into the eyes of my perfect little girl. She’s a blessing and a miracle. Every baby is.
I can’t be the mommy I want and need to be for the 9 months my body is taken over. My body resists so much, and takes on a lot. I want so badly to crawl around on the floor and wrestle with my tiny toddler. I want the energy to chase her and enjoy her. But pregnancy makes me a different person.
So, as hard as it is to admit – this may very well be my last pregnancy. The last time I feel a tiny person move and kick inside of me. The last time I hold a freshly baked newborn in my arms.
This doesn’t mean we are done. Because there are so many babies to love and who need a forever home. Although we have been planning for nearly a year to adopt, we are looking at the exciting idea of adopting 2 kiddos. We know we still want to adopt from Ethiopia if their government will allow, and are praying through what and where the next adoption will happen. Domestic or International? Lots to pray and think through in the coming years.
I believe the hard thing for me will be stopping at two adoptions. Just because my body can’t physically handle more pregnancies, doesn’t mean we have to give up and stop at two children. God has a bigger plan for us and He has 147 million babies across the world that need homes. If I can shrink that number by just a few, I am more than ok with that.
I think I’ll keep that unused test as a reminder of the blessing my kids are that I carried, and a blessing my kids are that I didn’t. Because even though it doesn’t serve it’s purpose, doesn’t mean I can’t serve mine.
SWEET
my friend Chelsey over at the paper mama has a weekly photo challenge
and i’m finally being a good blogger and submitting a picture
this week’s challenge is sweet
Nothing beats sweet like a baby’s first!!!
No need for a contest Chelsey, we win! 
the birthday bash of the century
We celebrated Munchkin’s big 1st birthday on Saturday! We had a blast celebrating her with family and friends. Here are some fun pics from the birthday bash!
THE DECOR & FOOD
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THE CAKE
We found out the day before the party the sex of the baby, and announced it at the party!
The inside of her smash cake was either pink or blue…
IT’S A GIRL!!!!!!!
THE FUN!
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Such a fun time!! I still can’t believe she’s a big 1 year old!
happy birthday baby girl!
My precious Jessi Girl,
Well, little girl. Our first year is now coming to a close. Parts of it FLEW by, and parts of it seemed to never end. For the first three months, I really wanted to put you back inside just so you would stop crying. The colic was brutal, but we all survived and came out stronger on the other end. You sleep like a ROCKSTAR. People keep telling me that I’m spoiled and no child should ever sleep as much as you, but I think it’s just because you are amazing. You are currently sleeping 13-14 hours every night and taking a 2 hour nap in the afternoons. Thank you!
What a joy you are. Your smiles, giggles and constant talking fill our home and make my heart so full. You like to laugh with people when they laugh, never wanting to miss out on the fun. You talk SO much, and I really wish I knew what was going through that tiny head of yours! You are so passionate about what you love to do, and it’s a blast to watch you play and learn.
You are SMART. So very smart. You are blowing us away with your vocabulary and how quickly you catch on to new words and objects.
Words you are currently saying:
Dada
Mama
Jack
Duck
Ball
Fan
Slide
Shoes
Book
Light
Block
Uh oh!
Night Night
Bye bye
Baby
You are also starting to learn animal sounds. You can do what a dog says and what a cow says. You are working on duck and pig. So cute to watch you do your little noises!
You love going to the duck pond and playing on the swings at the park. You are such an outside girl and love being out, but hate when the wind blows in your face. You love being at home with your puppy and your toys. You enjoy watching Veggie Tales and climbing on anything and everything.
What an amazing year we’ve had together, Munchkin. You are beautiful, smart and an absolute blast. I am a better person every day because of you. I can’t imagine my life without you now, and being your mom has been the best experience of my life. Thank you for being the amazing little person you are, and constantly being the light of our lives.
We love you little girl.
Always,
Mommy
WATCH ME GROW!
{life.love.lens}
Welcome to {life.love.lens} as I share with you a picture a day of the coolest tiny person in my life. Check back every Friday for a look at the week through my lens!
THE FINAL WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!
Week 52 – {March 18 – March 24}
Friday 3/18 – Hi I’m cute!
Saturday 3/19 – Whaaaaat? Who ME?
Sunday 3/20 – “Helping” Daddy out at church between Experiences. She was a pro up on stage! Gonna be just like her daddy.
Monday 3/21 – Cute little walking girl!!
Tuesday 3/22 – There really are no words.
Wednesday 3/23 – Just so big and cute!!
Thursday 3/24 – Tomorrow I turn one, and I’m TOO cool for school.
boy or girl!?!
Tomorrow we have an appointment scheduled to find out the sex of the baby!!!! We can’t promise anything since I’m just at the end of 15 weeks, but the doctor said she’d give it a shot for us. So we are taking Munchkin to the doctor on her 1st Birthday to see her baby brother or sister!!
Now is time to speak up or forever shut up, because we will announce it Saturday after the birthday party!
What do YOU think it is?
Cravings
Lemonade
Skittles
Arby’s Chicken Sandwich
Hot Dogs
Symptoms
Was horribly sick until about a week ago, started throwing up 2 days after conception
Seems very different from first pregnancy
Etc.
Baby’s heartbeat was around 170 (Munchkin’s was about the same)
Anything I craved with first pregnancy is gross to me now
Click here to see my post from before we found out we were having a girl last time!
Ok, time to vote!! What are we having?? A boy or a girl??
you’re invited!
We are in full on party mode. Banners are being hung. Final decor is being made. Soon the baking will begin. After being out of Event Planning for a year now, I’m thrilled to have a party to plan…even if it’s just our humble little 1st birthday! What a joy it is to plan an event to honor our little girl.
Her eyes lit up this morning when she saw her birthday banner hanging! I know she has no idea what it is, or what it’s for…but she loved it. That made this mama’s heart so happy. I hope she enjoys her party and all the fun we have planned for her!
I wish I could gather up all my wonderful blogging friends and you could all be here to play and celebrate!
Here’s a little sneaky peak at what the party will hold…
CODE IT & LOAD IT!
CODE IT & LOAD IT!
